I knew I was going to lose.
Never really believed in myself much.
Just in our connection.
Now I have lost.
Never wish to rewrite.
Hope you marry him.
Hope he develops fun.
Makes things exciting when they aren’t.
It’s the only way to deal with the emptiness in this world.
I love you. Love of my life.
To go from not being excited to see anyone.
To go from day to day.
To now moment by moment.
In the gap just replaying memories.
Only fear is you forgetting them.
Ill retell them a good joke.
The change you bring.
The power you have over me without any agreements.
Been in this area for 8 years.
And only now it is a home with memories.
Been breathing. But with you.
Take a nap.
I wont forget it.
My big fear is forgetting memories to.
When I die that’s all you got.
When you die its all I got.
When we are lost. It’s the road back. \
Only thing I want to do is have you.
All of you there in the moment.
The whole painting.
It will exist when I’m not there.
And I want it to keep painting itself.
So I can come back and look at it again.
Recall what I love and learn to love the new.
Never been sad and happy so many times in one time period.
It is my fault. I try to fill in too many blanks.
Well that’s education fucking me up.
Never teaching us to relax.
Want only what you need.
Well you may never rad this.
Because by now its probably already too late.
Don’t settle. Subdue yourself. Let another stop you.
All the people I have met none have been like you.
Not even close.
Who knew basic was rare. 😛
Still making light of everything.
Guess you find the light in everything when you’re constantly in the dark.